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Idolisation of her self-assured elder sister Rowan brings Ester Gould to this personal exploration of the narcissistic society. An original reflection on our need to be seen.
As a child, director Ester Gould knew exactly what she wanted to be: her two-year-older, extremely self-confident sister Rowan. In this unusual portrait, Gould does not show her sister, but different women who reflect several of Rowan’s sides. In the process, she discovers that the superwoman she once admired never existed. Just as in the myth of Narcissus who falls in love with his own reflection, Rowan’s seeming self-assurance turns to megalomania. A documentary about desire for recognition in a time of excessive individualism.


Executive producer
Sound editing
Sound Design

Title: A Strange Love Affair with Ego
Year: 2015
Duration : 1 hour, 33 minutes
Category: Long Documentary
Edition: NFF 2016


Gouden Kalf nominees

Beste Muziek (2016)
Marc Lizier
Beste Lange Documentaire (2016)
Ester Gould

Other awards

Prijs v.d. Nederlandse Filmkritiek (2016)

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